Gifts & Curses

2007-11-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

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2007-11-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

Serenity is to walk when others are running,
To whisper when others are shouting,
To sleep when others are restless,
To smile when others are frowning,
To be calm when others are angry,
And to pray when others are worrying.

“You cannot plough a field by turning it over in your mind."
No more eye power or plain thinking, I need to get about doing things. So many things. Zzz.

2007-11-13T20:01:00.000+08:00

I ran out of time today. I asked God whether he had time to spare for me. He said I have plenty of time, but chose to use them sparingly. But how can I use my time sparingly yet run out of it? There must be some way.

Time not used is wasted.

2007-11-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

Recently I read on newspaper that overfishing is causing a lot of problem in the South East Asian Seas and is potentially threatening the livelihood of millions of fishermen and their families. Tensions between nations over illegal fishing in another country's boundaries may also arise! Worse still, the sources of fish may deplete in as soon as 10 years time!

So now I'm taking up a new cause. For this cause, I will stop eating Ikan Bilis. These fishes are so tiny and young that before they even have the chance to mate, they die in our mouths. Fully grown ikan bilises can reach 23 cm! Wow. :S

Save the world. Save the ikan bilises!

2007-11-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

雄蝉每天唱个不停，是为了引诱雌蝉来交配的，雄蝉的叫声，雌蝉听来像一首美妙的乐曲，在交配受精后，雌蝉，就用像剑一样的产卵管在树枝上刺成一排小孔，把卵产在小孔里，几周之后雄蝉和雌蝉就死了。

由此可见 life is so short! From our perspective a bug's life is as long as this A levels will last. From God's perspective, our life is just a full stop in his diary (If He keeps one!). Now I feel the urgency - to fill up the gaps in my life and make sure I live one that I'll never regret.

The Difference

2007-11-06T20:24:00.000+08:00

I got up early one morning

And rushed right into the day:

I had so much to accomplish

That I didn’t have time to pray.

Problems just tumbled about me

And heavier came each task.

“Why doesn’t God help me?”

I wondered.

He answered, “You didn’t ask.”

I wanted to see joy and beauty.

But the day toiled on,

grey and bleak:

I wondered why God didn’t show me.

He said, “But you didn’t seek.”

I tried to come into God’s presence:

I used all my keys at the lock.

God gently and lovingly chided,

“My child, you didn’t knock.”

I woke up early this morning

and paused

before entering the day:

I had so much to accomplish

That I had to take time to

PRAY.

2007-10-20T22:27:00.000+08:00

As I thought deeper, I was suddenly reminded of the times when I was feeling on top of the world, or simply happy, God has always been there rejoicing with me too. Even during the times when I've yet to know him, he has already known me. I bet he was grinning when I was performing on stage for the first time, feeling shy about approaching a girl I liked, or simply anxious for me when I'm not following the path he has laid before me. All these minor details of my life matters to him. Just like how a mother would love her child, God loved me all these years and will continue to for the rest of time. This unconditional love, is what I call blissfulness! I'm feeling blessed ;)

2007-10-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

Maybe I hardly say this, but I really love 06S6E and every single one of you. Even though I know I haven't been doing very much, and I always want to avoid trouble and all those stupid complications, I really feel touched. Yep. You guys rocked!

Maybe if that is what God wants to say, to come to him when I'm all alone and in solitude, knowing that he alone is enough. Then I will gladly do it.

2007-10-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

Let your love be strong, and I don't care what goes down
Let your love be strong enough to weather through the thunder cloud
Fury and thunder clap like stealing the fire from your eyes
All of my world hanging on your love

2007-10-02T23:37:00.000+08:00

How amazing! I learnt that to earn your well-deserved grades you need to study effectively, not blindly! I had an apprehensive feeling about the upcoming A's, but after a relaxing time spent with a bunch of heavenly friends, the feeling just goes away! Amazing. Awesome. Felicitous! All these despite knowing that I have to take SAT II 1 day after Maths paper 1, 3 days after GP, 4 days after computing paper 1 and physics paper 3. That's on top of my new commitments, which I really treasure and value. It's not a mess I've gotten myself into. It's living my life to the edge.

2007-09-30T17:45:00.000+08:00

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

2007-09-26T20:37:00.000+08:00

Just salvaging some interesting photos from my phone.. Enjoy haha!

Last but not least, Mother Theresa says cheese with my new Specs! She looks cool with it haha..

2007-09-23T00:23:00.001+08:00

Ignorance is a bliss. It really is considering the fact that the more you know, the more you're gonna think about it, the more headache you'll get. But it also means that you'll take up more responsibilities, take more initiatives, be more receptive to other people's needs. I think what I've been trying to shut out of my life has been returning in unavoidable ways. Better to know and do something about it than to pretend it was never there.

2007-09-20T18:17:00.000+08:00

Was indulging in a tub of Black Forest from Iceland Creamery with Alex yesterday haha..super sinful! It came with alcohol but thank God its not so strong! We were craving for ice cream after a long afternoon of tennis and failed workout (Not me hahaha!).

Watched "Premonition" today and I came to realise that I seldom remember my dreams, and when I do remember I'll forget the details. I do remember nightmares though. There was one a night my family was holidaying in America (when I was K2) when I suddenly dreamed of how I was walking through this dark tunnel and there were tomb stones all around me! Typical nightmare haha. Some people I know appeared like monsters in my nightmares before =P. I guess the movie makes you think how you will react to something you have no control over, that is to accept it as it is or to try as much as possible to prevent it from happening. If you let something go the way it is, are you just couldn't be bothered or is it the same as giving up?

Travelled here and there just to find a nice place to practise, from Istana park to Fort Canning. But I'm glad we are all so flexible haha! All the best tmr!

"Worship God cannot do at home meh??" Here's my response to people who ask me why.

Psalm 84 says:
"Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young - a place near your altar"

2007-09-14T21:20:00.001+08:00

Ahh! My day ended on a good note! At least those 6 hours of sitting and squirming of bare knowledge from my head were worth the while. I can't pretend that I won't get A for computing haha but who knows I feel less confident than before. I still haven't learn from my mistake of not studying for computing because whatever we study won't come out, and whatever that's there is crappable.

I only arrived 1 hr before games at MIND CAFE ended but then, I don't mind paying 5 bucks for a game and the company which make me so much more relaxed! My head was cringing all along the bus ride.

Happy birthday Junhua! Fellow dogmatix GI ;)

Meanwhile I'm eagerly waiting for tomorrow to come. Anniversary and MAF! Can't wait to know what the past year has been for us. Can't wait to see what the juniors have in stall for us, and what we have in stall for the juniors! =P

I'm getting fat. I just broke the leg of my chair.

2007-09-09T20:33:00.001+08:00

Rearrange me.

2007-09-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

Facebook is irritatingly fun. Bites people, turns them into zombie, send someone a flower, hadoken them. I haven't got such a great inspiration for a web application for a long long time. (recalls my nerdy days). The inventor is creative! As creative as you-know-who.

I've been in and out of mugging mode for the past few days and sometimes I wonder if I stop, what might happen to me. My guess is that I will be insecure, worried that I may flung or do below average. But expectation is about predicting what is to come. How can I predict what I do not know? I don't want to live up to anyone's expectations but Yours.

Tomorrow's a different day!

2007-08-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

You walked me through the darkest valley.
You saw me through the brightest day.
Even though I may fall, you'll catch me with your grace.

2007-08-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

I have only one-liners to sum up the whole day.

Tennis is fun but tiring. I haven't been improving!

National library is so crowded on Sundays.

Tissue prata is exotically, crispily and chocolatily delicious to eat. Mini mountain!

Free ridership should be part of a clause in the international declaration of rights of man and human.

Some times you know so much about each other that you both have very little to talk about.

Check out the "Sheperd" art gallery outside Tangs!

What is faith to you?

To look past the present, knowing that all things are transient except the one thing that is constant.

Think out of the boat!

2007-08-17T21:18:00.000+08:00

Busyness drives me crazy, gives me headache.
Anxiety makes me boil, turns me red.
Insecurity snatches away my hope, gives me doubt.
Mugging is so boring, makes me pout.
Weariness pulls me like gravity, pushes me to my limit.
Why arh why arh why arh, why I miss my exam kit.
My legs are giving way, my fingers are weak,
my vision is blurred, the words are so hard to speak
they get twisted by my tongue.
Sian..so sian..

(Attempts to create a poem failed, so hard to make the ending words rhyme haha.)

2007-08-09T19:31:00.000+08:00

I found this to be highly illustrative of my life right now:

To sinful patterns of behavior that never get confronted and changed,
Abilities and gifts that never get cultivated and deployed-
Until weeks become months
And months turn into years,
And one day you're looking back on a life of
Deep intimate gut-wrenchingly honest conversations you never had;
Great bold prayers you never prayed,
Exhilarating risks you never took,
Sacrificial gifts you never offered
Lives you never touched,
And you're sitting in a recliner with a shriveled soul,
And forgotten dreams,
And you realize there was a world of desperate need,
And a great God calling you to be part of something bigger than yourself-
You see the person you could have become but did not;
You never followed your calling.
You never got out of the boat.

I must make the effort to take the first step!

2007-08-05T00:45:00.000+08:00

Compared to the walk Jesus took up the hill to the cross, my walk thus far is nothing more than a gentle upslope, with an occasional misstep, but definitely rewarding. Thanks to the amazing grace from above, my life is as fulfilling as ever! No words can describe how it feels to be a child of God, you gotta experience it yourself! =)

FOP ended great as usual, though we've got a few men down, nothing beats feasting on the music, the atmosphere, and the presence of God. Guys we still need to go down for Operation Bear so we can't afford to be down now! lol. The art of chopping seats has risen to the level of a shinobi, where we practically need to kage bunshin to keep the ushers from nagging. But that leaves us with very little chakra left. It probably explains why we've got a few men down!

Prelims are coming, A' levels are coming. zzzzzzz.

I've always been on the receiving end, I must strive to be on the giving end!

And to focus on the giver more than the gifts.

5/8/06

2007-07-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

God is patient, God is kind. He does not envy, He does not boast, He is not proud. He is not rude, He is not self-seeking, He is not easily angered, He keeps no record of wrongs. God does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. He always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

2007-07-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

I got my hands on an iPhone yesterday night! (Sees people turning green with envy, jealousy, hate) But it was just a sample my Dad brought from US. Heh I think the phone is really, really cool other than the fact that it doesn't look like one, nor does it function effectively as one. But the Wi-fi functions and the one-click youtube access is brilliant. Had google maps so you'll never get lost. There's the usual iPod too. But I guess the coolest feature has to be the multi-touch screen. If you haven't experience anything like that, its really hard to imagine. The colours are nice. I don't fancy the qwerty keyboard 'cause my fat thumb keeps pressing the wrong buttons. Nevertheless I guess it has to be the coolest toy I've gotten my hands on, though I still prefer playing towerbloxx. Just a short review!

2007-07-17T20:33:00.000+08:00

R.I.P Tracy. Too bad I didn't have a camera around to show you how peacefully she died, on this one fine morning. Or maybe yesterday because when I was feeding her and Lujie she's already not responding! Whatever it is, I'm sure she'd spend a good deal of time waddling/stoning and is now swimming in the vast ocean of heaven! I don't wish to tell you how my mum disposed of the corpse -.- But the killer remains at large! Lujie must have snatched away all the food, leaving Tracy to die. Evil Lujie!!