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Thursday, October 12, 2006,11:24 pm

I never had to taste the feeling of getting U before, so everything was just so disappointing for me. I guess its right to say that you will never understand the feeling of being at the bottom if you're always at the top. Not always though but that's not the point.

Sometimes I wonder whether you planted these people around me so that I can learn to appreciate them better. When it seems that they may be leaving you, the moment of despair just rushes into your mind. They seem so near, yet the next moment they may be so far away, unreachable. I wish I could do more than just doing nothing. I wish there's still a small slip of chance and hope that things may turn for the better. But all I can do now is to pray. Pray that God will perform some miracle in these people whom I treasure so much and love so much. Jehovah Jirah, I believe. Lord I need that assurance from you that they will come to know you and realise that there's so much more to hope for than this. Even if the truth seems to be the inevitable, will you prove them wrong?

I'm sorry I cried.